New Season

I love living in Utah. It has it's quarks, but you take the good with the bad with anything in life. I want to make the most out of winter. I want to teach Piper all the good it has to offer. Sledding, making snowmen, skiing, being grateful that we have a sturdy home with heat and a kitchen full of food.

So this was the first snowman that I have made in years. It is so hard. Each time I drive by a snowman now I am going to marvel at it and know how much effort was put into making this work of art.

I know he is more of a zombie, but I am still quite proud of him.

New Life

I haven't been able to bring myself to post because I am so emotional. On November 3 I found out that I am pregnant. So this was planned, but a bit quick. I think I was thrown back slightly.
I work with a midwife who recently told me that at my old age of 34 my chances of pregnancy were greatly reduced. Wow I can't wait to see her and tell her how wrong she was.
I will be the first to admit that change is really hard for me. I love change, and I know that it is necessary if you want to keep growing, but it takes me a while to get used to it.
I think the thing I am worried about the most is that Piper will feel like she isn't AS loved. The thought of this crushes my heart. I love her so immensely. Will I be able to love another like I love her. I feel so guilty saying this out loud. I know the answer to these questions, but my heart and hormones are having a grand old time with me.
I have an older brother who is 3 years older. I think the world revolves around him. I have adored him forever. I remember so vividly the day he started kindergarten. I was sitting on my mom's lap in the kitchen, and I was crying for him as he walked out the door. I can't imagine a world without my sister and brother.
I know Piper will love LaBron (this is what Seth calls the baby).
I truly can't imagine a world without my children. I hope they give the world hell. I hope Piper and her sibling take on this world with gusto and lean on each other always.
My mom always says that if a mother does her job right, there will come a day when her children no longer need her. When I leave this world one day I will feel a lot better knowing that my children are not alone and that they have each other.
So for now LaBron is hanging out in the cooker and Piper is shredding it up!